Happiness | Anxiety Talks

What is happiness?
Is it a feeling or is it a state of being?
What I do know is that happiness can be temporary. It can be incredibly hard to maintain. Your own negative self conscious can impact it and so can the world around you.
For example when you cant stop smiling because that one person has messaged you, but then you brain decides nah we ain't having this and every now and again drops doubts in to you head. 'don't be silly he is only after one thing' 'he will get bored of you soon just you wait and see'
Its when you listen to these doubt you no longer feel happiness.
If you suffer from anxiety you will listen to these doubts and then you will start over thinking about them. they manifest in your brain so much that they become real. If you let this happen is happiness really possible?
Of course it!!
You just need to learn to shout shut up!!! I'm still learning that but it is starting to work. OK
I understand that maybe your brain is telling you the truth but in my experience If you don't try how can you know if happiness is a possible feat?
Next time your brain shouts 'what if' shout back 'shut up'

Love Hayley Beth

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DIY IT!!!| DIY Christmas Gifts

Snow is fallin'
All around me
Children playin'
Having fun
It's the season
Love and understanding
Merry Christmas everyone

I know right, can you believe Christmas is literally round the corner. This year I have been super unorganised and have literally bought nothing. So this year I have set myself a little challenge. I am going to try and make some gifts.

So the first DIY I have done are the famous 'Sharpie Mug'. Now I couldn't find any of the sharpie paint markers so i used posca pens instead. So I have made these for my two house mates and my mum and sister. Everyone loves mugs and they can be used for so much more than just drinking a good cuppa tea!!!

So first of all you will need a selection of cheap plain mugs, nail varnish remover, paint pens and stickers.

I'm not all that creative so i went with the monogram letter dot design. What I did was print out some letters in a variety of bold fonts onto some sticker paper. once I stuck the letters to the mugs and chose the colours i wanted the dots to be. I chose silver and gold as I thought it was very christmassy!!!
once you are happy with your design peel the sticker off and leave to dry fully over night. In order to be able to use the mug without damaging your design you will need to pop in the oven at 220 for around 45 mins. Make sure you let the mugs warm up and cool down completely with the oven to prevent cracking.
Your mugs are now done!!! Make sure to only hand wash them so they last longer!!!!

And hey presto you have the perfect gift for quite simply anyone!!!! I hope you have enjoyed this little DIY and if you give it a go please share what you make using #lovehayleybeth

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Love Hayley Beth XXX


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DIY IT!!! Weekly Planner Board

Heeeellloooo!!!!
So first off I apologise for not publishing this sooner I've just been super busy of late. But here it is!!! Now this is going to be a new series that I will try to do weekly; at the moment it is called DIY IT!!! But I am looking for a better name so please comment your suggestions!!!

So what you will need:

• Poster board in your desired colour
• Card suitable for printing on
• Hot glue gun
• Craft knife
• Metal organiser pots (I'm not really sure what they are called!!!)
• Sticky back plastic

I used an A2 sized poster board but you can use any size depending on where you want to put your planner. I found my planner template on pinterest but obviously it you are more creative than me you can make your own. once you have your weekly planner print it on to your card and cover it is sticky back plastic. If you have a laminating machine that will also work. 

I then found some cool quotes to also print on to card and obviously I had to include a Harry Potter quote!!!!

Attach the planner and quotes to the poster board using double sided tape.

I then found some pen pots to stick to the poster board using a glue gun. In one pot I have put my whiteboard pens and in the other I have put my pills and multivitamins. 

I wanted to hang my board up to I just attached a piece of twine to the back of the board with the hot glue gun!!!

And hey presto you have yourself a weekly planner board. 

Please if you make one please share your pictures on instagram using #lovehayleybeth and I will be liking and sharing my favourites!!!!

Thank you for reading I hope you enjoyed it and I will speak to you again soon!!!!

Love Hayley Beth XXX

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I Have A Website

No you are not seeing double, I have posted this same feature on my other blog.
This is just to let you know that my new website is now up and running!!!! Obviously not all my items are up yet as I am re shooting everything, making it look a little more professional. So please please please go check it out!!! And as a special thank you I have a little discount code for ya!!!!
Just use the code BLOG20 when you get to the checkout and you will receive a 20% off discount!!!!

I hope you like what you see
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Christmas Wish List 2016

Hello there!!!
Can you believe December is literally round the corner? Where has this year gone?
Now as we all know December can be one of the most stressful months when it comes to shopping. So to help all my wonderful friends and to give you a little bit of present inspo I have put together my or Christmas wish list.
So here goes!!!

The first item on my list is clothes. now this isn't because I just cant be bothered to go shopping. It is actually because over this last year I have put on quite a bit of weight (although that does not mean I am unhealthy) and I had to give away my entire wardrobe. I literally have like no clothes at the moment and not that much money!!! Luckily I am a size 16 now which means I can get clothes in both the regular ranges and the more curvy ranges!!!

The second item on my list is a macbook air. Now I know this is really unrealistic but they are just so beautiful looking. They are also super light weight which means I would be able to blog more often and keep an eye on my new jewellery site much easier.

The next item on my list is quite simply a giant Body Shop haul. I am quite simply obsessed with the Body Shop and always visit my local store whenever I am in town. I absolutely adore their face masks and would love to try out some of their make up range!!!

I admire Zoella and everything she has achieved which is why I would love it if I could own pretty much here entire beauty and home range. the packaging alone is just gorgeous and I can only hope to be half as successful as her.

The fifth item on my wish list is my favourite perfume!!! Yves Saint Laurent Black Opium is the one perfume I adore yet cannot afford.

Unicorns!!! That's all. I love unicorns and I will love anything with a unicorn or a lipstick called unicorn.

And finally it would be great to receive some crafting supplies!!! I am addicted to washi tape so fill me up a stocking and away I go!!! I would also love some craft punches (i think that is what they are called) they would add so much to my crafts and scrap booking.

I have also put together a wish list on amazon containing all the items i would love. Now before you say it this is not me begging for you to buy me anything. That is not what I want. This is just a fun little blog.

Now I wish you good luck in all your Christmas shopping and if you are looking for a great stocking filler please head over to my depop page!!!

But for now
Love Hayley Beth XXX


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McDonald's Christmas Menu 2016

Hello there!!!
So yesterday during my quick shopping trip before work I decided to try McDonald's new Christmas menu for 2016. So here is McDonald's promotional poster for the new range:

Now looking at this picture I knew I had to ditch my failed attempt at a diet and go check it out. So I bought the festive cheese feast and the terry's chocolate orange mcflurry.
Now my first moan is that on the first day of the Christmas promotion the store I visited did not have any of the chocolate banoffee pies. Like WTF?!?! How do you not have promo items on the first day of a promo???
So this is what the food looked like when I sat down to eat:

So as you can see the burger is literally a big tasty with some cheese and cheese sauce. Now to me that really does not scream Christmas. In fact it tells me that McDonald's really could not be arsed this year. Like dude when I think of Christmas I think cranberry sauce and turkey. But NO they just wanted to use up left over promo meat.
The other thing that annoyed me during this visit was that my Christmas mcflurry was in the wrong cup. I actually had to check to see if they had  given me the correct mcflurry. This mcflurry cup still says malteaser. now this usually would not bother me but I went to McDonald's yesterday specifically for the Christmas menu and when I don't get what i wanted I am not too pleased.

Now the burger did taste nice I have no complaints about that, it just isn't in the slightest bit festive. What I do know though, is that I will not be buying the Christmas mcflurry again. Not going to lie it was shit. It did not taste like a chocolate orange in the slightest in fact I could barely taste the orange. Over all I woulld give it just one christmas out of five. 🌲
Obviously these are only my opinions and I am sure many of you will love their new Christmas menu so I do urge you to all go and try it out. If you do try it let me know what you thought in the comments or tweet me @lovehayleybeth

I hope you enjoyed reading my blog
As always much love
Hayley Beth XXX




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What I Bought Today ¦ 23rd November 2016

Hello there. Now  first of all I wanted to apologise for the super depressing post yesterday. I was quite obviously full of emotion after the days events and I just needed a way in which to express those feelings.
But I have some exciting news!!!!
I am going to try and post a blog every single day for the next year over both of my blogs!!! So if I do something fun or I go to a new restaurant, I by some new stuff or if in the very distant future I go on a date I will be bringing all of you guys along with me on this blog!!! But if I am doing something crafty of related to my shop I will be posting over on my other blog.

So today's post, as you can see from the title is 'what i bought today'.
now as you can expect I'm still not feeling great, but one way that I find cheers me up; and I bet a load of you will feel the same, is going shopping!!!!
Now this isn't going to be a way in which I brag about what I have got or a place for me to show off how much money I have got because seriously I don't have that much money, like I work a normal job in a betting shop, I live on my own and pay my own bills, so this is just the day to day things i treat myself to.


So I'm guessing at this point you will want to know 'what did Hayley buy today then'
Well first of all I bought some makeup. Now I am no expert when it comes to makeup so I don't spend much on it. Like you will literally never catch me buying MAC or Benefit. I just stick to the good value cruelty free brands I know.
So I absolutely love NYX Soft Matt Lip Cream and because it is now officially winter I decided I need a couple of darker shades. So I bought two of these; one is Prague and the other is Monte Carlo. I just find these super easy to use and they are so light weight so you can easily slip them into your  purse. So these were both £5.50 each and I bought them from Boots.

Now the next item I bought was also by NYX, and that is mascara. Now I have never tried  their mascara before but the packaging is just so beautiful I had to buy it. I bought two different mascaras the first one is called 'more to love' which i think is more of your everyday mascara and the second is called 'badunkadunk' mow this will be the mascara I where out at parties and when I get super dressed up. These were both £6.50 and also from Boots.

And the final bit of make up I bought today was my absolute essential powder by collection. I absolutely love their Lasting Perfection Ultimate Wear Powder. It is amazing now I always use this with their Colour Match foundation as it just makes me look a little less shiny and gives me amazing coverage. So this was also from boots and I think they must have some sort of promotion on collection makeup at the moment because when I looked at my receipt I had 20p off. So normally it would cost me £4.19 but today I managed to get it for £3.99

Now as many of you know I am a massive Harry Potter fan. So of course I had to buy something Potter themed. Now I'm not going to lie Waterstones can be pretty pricey but today they pleased me!!!
So here is what I bought!!! Of course it was Harry Potter and The Cursed Child. I have sen so many good reviews about this book and I cannot wait to read it. I'm not sure how I will feel about reading it as a play but  we will see. So usually this book would cost you £20 but I got it with £5 off so it only cost me £15

So lets not stop there I also bought the original screen play of Fantastic Beast and Where to Find Them!!!! AAAHHHH!!!! I am going to watch the film tomorrow which I cannot wait for but seriously this book is BEAUTIFUL. Like seriously I have never seen a book so gorgeous and don't get me started on that new book  smell!!!. So this one also had a little bit of money off so instead of it costing me £16.99 it only cost £8.49

So stepping away from Harry Potter I also bought Zoe Suggs latest book. Now I have loved this series since it started. In fact I was diagnosed with anxiety maybe just before or just after the first book came out and it really helped me get to grips with it all. Now I currently don't have a copy of the first book as I'm not sure if I told you but Ben's (my now ex boyfriends :'[) former foster sister ruined it. Like it destroyed my faith in humanity. When I got the book back I actually cried. I have never seen such a mistreated book in all my life. It was soul destroying. So if anyone does have a hard back copy of the first girl online book please let me have it!!! So like the others this one wasn't full price. Normally it would cost you £12.99 but I was able to get it today for only £6.49

And Finally in order to plan all of these lovely blogs for you guys I bought a new notebook. Now I definitely spent more on this notebook than I have spent on a notebook like ever but it is an important notebook and is slightly gorgeous. It is a beautiful pastel pink with rose gold polka dots with a little motto (not sure if that is the right word) that says 'you look lovely'. It also came with a pencil that attaches to the spine of the notebook and all of the pages have this sparkly rose gold edging to them that makes me so happy inside!!! Now this was also on offer at £5.99 instead of its normal price of £8.99 at WHSmiths.

So thank you for reading this, if you want to buy anything that I have mentioned in this blog all the links are bellow and please send me any photos of you with these items using the hash tag #lovehayleybeth Also if you have any recommendations of any books or make up I should try out leave me a comment or tweet me @lovehayleybeth
Tomorrow I will be letting you know what I think of McDonald's new Christmas menu for 2016 So I hope you Will join me then!!!

Much Love
Hayley Beth XXX




Links to items featured: NYX lip creams
                                       NYX lush lashes mascara-more to love
                                       NYX lush lashes mascara-badunkadunk
                                       Collection Lasting Perfection Powder
                                       Harry Potter and The Cursed Child
                                       Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them
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It's Over

Today me and Ben made the decision to end things.
We never even made it out. He gave up. It absolutely breaks my heart to know I can no longer just pick up the phone to talk to him, To know that we will never argue over whether dragon ball z is a cartoon or anime. To know that when I get scared he will no longer be there to comfort me.
It breaks my heart to hear him cry. To tell me he will never get over me. To hear him say he has failed because he is incapable to make me happy.
We were together for nearly a year and a half. In that time we have made so many happy memories that I will quite simply treasure for the rest of my life.
I remember dancing in his room to rubbish music and laughing until I couldn't breath. Sitting down every week to watch tattoo fixers and the last leg. Debating subject he knew nothing about but doing it any way so he could see the smile on my face when I knew I had won. Seeing how proud he was of me whenever I sold one of my necklaces.
I look back and honestly I don't think I ever appreciated the little things. I don't think I ever even noticed.
Ben has quite frankly stolen a piece of my heart. I know I will treasure our love for the rest of my life.
It is going to take me a hell of a long time to move forward and I will cry from time to time but one day I know we will both be happy be it together or living out separate lives I know I will always love him.
Goodbye my Love XXX

The Big Surprise Day- part 1

So after not hearing from my boyfriend for a good 24 hours. I still didn't have a clue what today would entail. I decided to give him a call and he has quite simply told me we are going for a freaking meal. Not gonna lie but I am thoroughly disappointed. this day was his way of fixing this relationship showing that he does care and I am sorry if I sound ungrateful but a poxy meal!!!
Like I was expeccting a day of christmas shopping in Bristol or at least something a little bit more exciting than a meal at the quays. which by the way is where we always freaking go!!!!
At this present moment he has done nothing to say this relationship is good we are awesome if anything I feel as though he has put no thought or care into today.
This is so frustrating.
I will be back later.

As always
Love Hayley Beth XXX

An Update On My Dilema

So first of all a massive thank you to everyone who offered me your support. Sometimes it really does help to talk to complete strangers!!!
So I thought I would give you a little update on the situation.
Me and my boyfriend have talked and in all honesty at this present moment this relationship is coming to a crashing halt. It quite frankly does not work anymore.
But I have said that if things do not change with in a week then it will be for deffo over.
So far he has been quite good he texts when he says he will text ect but I still don't feel any different. There is still a part of me that knows that the good boyfriend act wont last. I know that if we stay together in a few weeks or a month things will go back to shit again.
But we will see. he is planning some sort of super surprise day on Tuesday so I will let you all now how that goes.

As always
Love Hayley Beth XXX

A Bit of a Dilema

Hi Guys!!!
So basically I need  bit of advice.
Right so my boyfriend works nights and when he isn't working he is asleep like he could be asleep for 24 hours. Now I understand that this means we wont see each other as much as would be desired but it has now got to the point where he no longer even so much as texts me to say hi or anything.
He just says 'well it ain't my fault im working'
Ok I understand you work but you get a break what is your excuse?
He also does not seem to care that we might not actually see each other for weeks at a time because all he does is sleep.
I really don't know what to do any more. Like I have tried. I stay up at night so that I can talk to him on his break and then he never calls and I then end up going to work the next day absolutely shattered.
It has also got to the point where I have given up making plans with him because he just never wakes up and ends up standing me up.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Please tweet me with your advice.

Thank you
Love Hayley Beth xxx

Happiness

Looking back at my childhood the most poignant of memories are from when I was most upset and angry. I wouldn't consider myself to be a happy person. But what is happiness? I can't say I have ever felt immense happiness nor can I really remember a time whereby something made me particularly happy.
Is that a bad thing or does it maybe shown that I haven't been making the right decisions in life?
I thought having a stable job and being in a relationship would make me happy. I thought making jewellery and other crafts would make me happy.
Is there something wrong with me or am I just blocking out the happy memories?
I can't be the only person who feels like this. And please it isn't depression as I know that is what most people jump to but I know something isn't quite right.
I laugh and i have fun but there is always something else lingering in the back of my head.
Unfortunately now this sadness has got so bad that even my boyfriend doesn't wish to spend time with me. Always making excuses. I may be seeing something that isn't there but what I am currently seeing is a life with out love, a life without happiness in a monotonous life.
I know i shouldn't feel empty like this. But I see all my friends settling down, starting families and here I am not leaving the house all day as though I am scared of the outside world.
I am lost amongst my sadness.

This Is Not My Gloucester

What is wrong with people in Gloucester at the moment?
Since when was it the norm to carry a knife and use it?
Since when was it no longer shocking to hear that another person has been stabbed or that there has been an attempted stabbing?
Is Gloucester really that bad of a place to be these days is it really that dangerous that we have to be prepared to protect ourselves this is no longer the Middle Ages where everyone carried swords to protect themselves from bandits.
We have progressed from that so why is it now, this week that so many people have been hurt.
Why is there a family mourning the loss of their child due to some one from Gloucestershire.
This is not on, this sort of thing shouldn't be happening like this in Gloucester. Gloucester was a relatively safe place.
But now?
Now you have to watch your back when you walk home from work just in case a clown wants to chase you or in case you walk into a potential stabbing.
I see so many people wanting to leave such a lovely community because of it.
I see people crying over loved ones because of it.
This needs to stop.
This is not my Gloucester.

Time To Start

So yesterday I received my Garmin watch in all its pink glory so tomorrow I start my trip to becoming fitter and eventually healthier.
Baby steps. I'm not going to jump straight into it by attempting and failing to run 3 miles and deciding it isn't fun and giving up, I'm just going to go for a walk. I'm going to walk at a brisk pace so I gain something from it. This will also help me figure out how far routes are so when I am fit enough to run a decent 3 miles it will actually be 3 miles!!!
I will also attempt to upload my walk to strava (mum I will probably need your help).
So when it is uploaded I will tweet a link so you can follow my progress if you wish. So here goes. Time to get off your arse Hayley!!!

Love Hayley Beth XXX

London Marathon Dreams!!!

This Sunday I sat in bed and watch The Virgin London Marathon. It made me remember all the years I sat on the sofa with my mum and dad, and the hand full of occasions that my dad actually ran the marathon.
I had always said since I was a little girl that I wanted too run the marathon. My dad was my idol when it came to running. I used to run because my dad ran and I wanted to be just like my dad. But as life went on I became more and more disinterested in running and more interested in food.
But now I want to change that. As I said in my previous post I am trying to improve my fitness, but now I am going to go one step further and set my self a real goal. I am going to run the 2018 London Marathon.
It gives me two years in which to get fitter and train. I will be getting a gps watch that will mean I can post my runs on to a website called strava. This means you can all see how my training is going and it also means my parents can make sure I am actually going fr runs and not just being a right lazy lump in bed watching netflix...
I'm not sure if I will run for a charity yet or not. There isn't really a particular charity that I feel means a lot to me or that has particularly help me or my family as far as I am aware.

So here goes starting now I am training for the big one!!!!

Wish me luck!!!

Love Hayley Beth XXX

A Realisation

On Sunday my boyfriends family and I decided to go for a walk up coopers hill. It was a lovely day, the sun was shining, it was quite frankly wonderful.
I only managed to get half way up the hill. I didn't realise quite how unfit I was. My back was in agony and my chest was tight. I felt truly pathetic. I couldn't believe that I was unable to walk up a hill that only a few months ago I was able to climb easily. I know that I have put on a considerable amount of weight in that time but I hadn't quite realised what effect that had had on me apart from the need for more clothes.
Because of this I/ have decided to try and get back to the old me of sorts. I am going to try and eat healthier and start walking more. I don't just mean walking into town instead of getting the bus, I mean going for walks up Robinswood Hill and down the canal. eventually I hope to be fit enough to start jogging and eventually running again.
I am not trying to reach an unrealistic body goal, I am just trying to be healthier and fitter and happier with myself.

I will keep you up to date with my progress. I won't claim to be an expert, I will just share what I am doing and what works for me.

As always
Love Hayley Beth XXX

Busy Bee!!!

Hello my lovelies!!!
I have been a very busy bee recently. First of all I have started working in a lovely new store of which I am enjoying thoroughly!!! Secondly I have been exercising my creativity by creating a beautiful line of necklaces. What I have made are not necessarily high end fashion but they are something that I think are beautiful. They are simple charm necklaces made of black cord and antique bronze charms and pendants.
In the future I want to be able to use quartz and crystal pendants. I would also like to create a line of bracelets and earrings.

My necklaces are available on depop, you can find me by searching lovehayleybeth. All my necklaces start at £3 and can be fully customised to fit your personality. If you don't have depop and don't want to download it you can email me at lovehayleybeth@gmail.com to order a custom design and payment can be done via paypal.

For further updates on jewellery making adventure please keep your eye on my jewellery blog lovehayleybethjewellery.blogspot.co.uk 


As always
Love Hayley Beth XXX