Goodbye to those who loved me....

So I tried writing this on the 16th of march but it was just too hard.
I've taken some time at I have finally got my head straight.
The 16th of march was my sisters 18th birthday. The 16th of march was also the last day I talked to my family. I had finally lost it, I had finally had enough.
I had enough of always coming second fiddle to my sister, I had enough of my dad not even talking to me even when i was sat right next to him and I was fed up of never being good enough for my mum.
I honestly would rather have no family than live in a family where by lets face it im not liked all that much.
I am just lucky I have great friends and work colleagues who I can talk to when I need to.

Sorry for the daily blogging to be a bit of a flop but I will be back tomorrow with another blog which will be a hell of a lot more cheerful than this one!!!!

As always
Love Hayley Beth XXX

Popped My Lion King Cherry

Yes today was the first time I watched lion king!!! At the age of 19 (nearly 20) I sat down and watched it and I didn't cry. Instead I laughed at the way Ben was pretending not to sing along to every song!!!!
It did teach me one thing though. Just because people are supposed to be there for you they aren't always going to be. Family sometimes have another agenda as shown with scar but your true friends will be by your side no matter what.
Over all it was a good film the only downside was the fact that Disney seem to think a song is necessary every five minutes.

As always
Love Hayley Beth XXX

Super awesome lazy day

Today I did nothing!!! I had my first day off in what seemed like ages. I spend the day in my pajamas watching gossip girl on netflix eating junk and quite frankly it was utter bliss. I even has a nap lol!!!
It was the only way you spend a Sunday!!!! Doing nothing put a smile on my face, there was nothing expected of me. I could be in all my disgustingness and nobody could judge me. Now I am waiting for my loving  boyfriend to get off the xbox and give me cuddles!!!!!
As always
Love Hayley Beth xxx

today's happy moment!!!

I thought I would start this all off with what makes me happy everyday. Ben. Knowing he is always here for me when I need him. It's been hard of late what with us working in different betting shops and hours always clashing, but we are working so hard to see each other. In fact I am waiting for him to come round as write this terrible post!!!!
So here he is, my beautiful Benjamin!!!!

 As always
Love Hayley Beth xxx

Sorry...

So I've kinda neglected you guys for a little while. I'm sorry I just haven't had time to blog...

So what has happened since my last geeky post?

Well I had an awesome Christmas with my gorgeous boyfriend who spoilt me rotten, I had a spontaneous valentines and I am moving stores!!!

Although a lot is going well at the moment anxiety keeps rearing it's evil head and unfortunately it is starting to get me down. I haven't been able to hide my down days so much and Ben has seen things I never wanted him to see. My down days are pretty hard to come out of as well. So because of this I have decided that I will start to post every day. It might not be a big entry like this one but it will be something that made me smile. It could be a photo, a quote or a news article. 

So starting tomorrow I will start posting everyday. It may be the only thing I have smiled at in a day so I want to share it!!!

Thank you for still reading my posts while I have been gone.

As Always 

Love Hayley Beth xxx