An Update On My Dilema

So first of all a massive thank you to everyone who offered me your support. Sometimes it really does help to talk to complete strangers!!!
So I thought I would give you a little update on the situation.
Me and my boyfriend have talked and in all honesty at this present moment this relationship is coming to a crashing halt. It quite frankly does not work anymore.
But I have said that if things do not change with in a week then it will be for deffo over.
So far he has been quite good he texts when he says he will text ect but I still don't feel any different. There is still a part of me that knows that the good boyfriend act wont last. I know that if we stay together in a few weeks or a month things will go back to shit again.
But we will see. he is planning some sort of super surprise day on Tuesday so I will let you all now how that goes.

As always
Love Hayley Beth XXX

MCM Comic Con Telford

So on Saturday the 15th of February I went to comic con with my friend Josh. It was bloody amazing. I got to meet the lovely Hannah Spearritt. I may of got a tad star struck lol!!! 

But this blog isn't really about what an amazing day it was and all the funky costumes I saw. No this blog is about how that friend Josh hurt me. 

I guess you could say that Saturday was our first official date, we had been I guess seeing each other for around two months. I really liked him and I thought he liked me too. After I got home on saturday I received a text and this is what it said:

i think it would be good for you to know i've decided on what i want, but im not sure how to put it... i think we should just be friends as i cherish this friendship a lot and don't want to lose it. i'm afraid if something happened we wouldn't like each other. i hope this doesn't upset you after a brilliant day, thank you for understanding and thank you for today i appreciate it :)

That text ruined my day. He lead me on the whole time. The trouble is I don't hate him like I probably should, I hate the way he made me feel. I always new nothing would come of this. I would have been deluding my self otherwise. But even so this text came as a complete shock to me I didn't know what to think to I lied and said:

That's absolutely fine

I was not fine, I felt empty inside. I cried myself to sleep that night and woke up the next day still crying. I felt so pathetic crying over a school girl crush. Because that is essentially what it was. I am sure that many of you know what i am feeling right now...that is  if anyone actually gives a damn about this blog. 

So to end this here are a couple of photos from Saturday!!!

As always 

Love Hayley Beth Xxx