Saturday 16 May 2015

worst night of my life

So it is 20 past 1 on Saturday morning and I have just got in from town with my boyfriend and his friends. I saw my boyfriend for all of about 5 minutes tonight and spent most the night with someone I had never met before. I'm going to be brutally honest I'm not going out again I didn't enjoy it, in fact I would have rather stuck pins in my eyes. I usually love going out but tonight was different, when we got to the first pub i was stuck looking after everyone's stuff while they went and danced the same happened in another club. I wasn't able to enjoy myself and it has ruined going out for me completely.
I'm sorry for this rant.
Love Hayley Beth xxx

Tuesday 12 May 2015

Is It Too Soon?

As many of you know I live on my own. Some of you may know that where I live is a complete shit hole. Because of this I am looking to move out. If you follow me on instagram or twitter you will know about my new relationship. I don't want to say too much but what I will say is that we met on a night out and we have been together for just over a month. I do like him very much and well I hope it goes better than the previous ass holes I have encountered.
The reason I have mentioned him is because one of the options I have been given is to move in with him and his mother. Now don't get me wrong I would freaking love to, I am spending the majority of my time there as it is and me and his mum are getting on like a house on fire. She is teaching me how to cook and we have home and away marathons together.
But is it too soon?
I know everything has gone fast between us but there are some things I want to take slow. By officially moving in I am giving up my own sanctuary where I can run away to when we get too much for each other but at the same time I want to spend every spare minute with him. There  isn't the issue of what if you split up because I'm just going to say it, I don't want to I want to spend my life with him and make a future but I don't want to jeopardise that by moving in.
This will be my only post about him on here as I don't wish for my entire life to be public any more. I have shared things on here that I don't necessarily regret doing but the entire world did not need to know and I  wont lie I did receive hate for it.
Thank you for reading
Love Hayley Beth xxx