Love, A New Me and An Evil Notebook

Well hello there!!!
So I have to apologise for my last blog it wasn't my finest hour but I guess it just shows that I am human! Anyway I thought I would just tell you what I have been up to recently!
As I have mentioned in previous blogs I have a boyfriend. So here are a few things about him. His name is harry, he is obsessed with skateboards and  motorbikes, he supports Birmingham City and he tells awful jokes. currently I haven't heard from him since Monday. And it is killing me. most people will think so what it ain't that long but when you are used to hearing from someone everyday it sucks. This is all because he is currently on a residential as part of his Princes Trust course. I miss him so much and time seems to be going by so slowly without him. I often worry that my constant need to hear from him is holding him back especially when he is with his new friends from the princes trust like he is moving on in life and I am just stuck where I am.
So that got deep. so what else have I been up to? Well I had a day off on Tuesday so I got all dressed up and went shopping. I have to say I felt far more confident in myself wearing nice clothes and make-up so I dunno this is the new me!!!

While I  was out shopping I found this really cute notebook with the words evil plans and stuff written on the front. As soon as I saw it I thought of my best friend and fellow blogger Kirstie (check out her latest blog here). She is absolutely nutty so when I see here next she has herself a little present lol!

I also bought myself a cute bag and purse from BHS and a skirt also from BHS. I paid for them using my star of the month gift card (that's right I am awesome at work lol!!!)
Tomorrow I am heading over to my Big brothers house for a day of movies, munchies and possibly a McDonalds.
So yeah I don't have the most exciting life but it is my life and well I love it!!!
So um yeah thanks for reading!!!
Love Hayley Beth xxx

How I Feel Right Now

Some days I want a big hole to appear and swallow me up. That is how I feel right now. Life should be good. I have a job, a great guy who loves me, a house to live in and a great group of friends. I have also recently got back in touch with a very good friend from school. The trouble is I have parents. Parents who disapprove of every step I make and every breath I take. At 18 there isn't a whole lot I can do to get out of this situation. Nobody in there right mind would rent a room t an 18 year old so I'm kinda stuck here in this living hell hole.
Because of this I rarely spend any time at home I'm either at work or with my boyfriend who I am pretty sure my parents hate mainly because he is my boyfriend.
I probably wont eat a meal tonight because that would mean me eating my parents food yet I pay £200 keep the majority of the time I am confined to what is actually available for my consumption. When my mother does cook it isn't proper meals beans on toast, a veggie burger, the odd jacket potato.
I can no longer live like this. Being hated isn't a nice feeling. In fact it makes you want to end your existence (notice I did not put life, this is not some suicidal plea for help, this is simply me saying I do not wish to live this kind of life any more), start all over again, be a new person away from the shit. As soon as I can I will leave this life an never return to it. Will I miss it? Probably but it will pass I have to learn to grow into the person I want to be not the person I have to be.
I am sorry that this is incredibly depressing and many others have it much worse but needed to get this all off my chest.
Love Hayley Beth xxx

I Can Bake...Kind of

So while I was working the other day I saw that we were selling whoopie pie makers for only £5 so I bought one!!!
Because of this I went round to my boyfriends to make whopie pies!!! It took us about three hours to make them but  that is because we are quite simply awful at baking!!!
So here is the cheats way of making some interesting whoopie pies!!!

What you will need:

1 whoopie pie maker

100g butter

150g 70% chocolate

200g sugar

3 free range eggs

1tsp vanilla extract

30g cocoa powder

200g self raising flour

1/2 tsp baking powder

How to make them:

Melt the butter and  chocolate in a bowl over a pan of simmering water making sure the bottom or the bowl does not touch the water. Keep stirring gently so that the chocolate does not burn.

Whisk the sugar, eggs and vanilla until a you get a mixture that is thick and pale in colour.

Fold the chocolate mixture into the sugar and eggs.

Sieve in the flour, baking powder and cocoa powder and fold gently ensuring you do not over the mix the mixture.

Evenly distribute the mixture into the cases and cook for 3 minutes!!!

Pink marshmallow frosting:

What you will need:

100g softened butter

200g icing sugar

2tbsp milk

1tbsp vanilla extract

100g marshmallows

pink food colouring

How to make it:

Mix together the butter, sugar, milk and vanilla until smooth. Add the food colouring until you reach your desired shade of pink.

Gently melt the marshmallows in the microwave until they are slightly melted and start to puff up.

Add the marshmallows to the icing an mix till fully combined.

The frosting should be thick and light.

We made a little too much frosting so decorated the top with it and so pink sprinkles. I have to say although they may not have looked the best the sure were yummy!!!


As always thank you for reading
Love Hayley Beth