Have you ever felt a time where you have finally seen a persons true colours and they are not truly the person you believed them to be? Have you ever had a guy take you out for lunch and treat you like a lady to actually find out all they want is sex? Have you ever thought you could spend the rest of your life with someone only to discover that when you walk away that person will do and say anything in the hope that you will go straight back to them?
If you have been through anything like this I am proud to say you are no longer colour blind to that particular person. Unfortunately it is incredibly likely to happen again.
But why do people do this? Why can they not be up front about who they really are or what they really want? I personally think it is because if they were to be true to themselves they wouldn't even get close to what they want because don't want to know someone of that character, they want to associate themselves with kind honest people. I also believe it is because some people want to be something they are just incapable of being. they want to be a true gentleman but their needs take presidents and needs tend to come before wants.
You may be wondering why I am talking about this subject. Well that is because recently I have been able to see many peoples true colours. Sometimes it didn't bother me so much but other caused me a lot of pain and emotion. But what I have learnt from this is that I have truly discovered the people who matter to me the most, the guys that will never leave my side. It has also showed me that no matter who I meet I always have to give them the real me. Yes they may not like it but I would rather they saw Hayley the bitch and liked me than having to keep up a façade to please them.
This blog has been a long time in the making and those closest to me will know the root to this subject.
Thank you for reading and I am hoping to post a new blog at least once a week from now on.
Love Hayley Beth xxx